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7 Months

As every month clicks by, I am finding life without Christy is really hard, but I’m doing it and I think I’m doing really well most days. Last night was hard as I dreamed of Christy and relived her death. … Continue reading

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A Process

As I reflect on this life journey, I am finding a pattern, a repeating process. One that includes failure, loss, pain on one side and hope, renewal, excitement on the other. But, enveloping it all is this great sense of … Continue reading

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Life in a moment

When Christy and I first found out about her cancer, I could not begin to fathom what life might be like without my best friend. I come into each new day hopeful, but more days than I’d like to admit, … Continue reading

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6 Months

I sure never believed life would be so different in such a short while. I remember everything so vividly, yet it seems so long ago at times, almost like a dream. I have never been tested so hard in my … Continue reading

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Hurt is hurt and it hurts

I can’t describe the deep pain that sometimes hits me. Today was one of those times when it seemingly came out of nowhere. I was just ending up my work day and catching the last out of the Red’s game, … Continue reading

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The Battlefield

As I have just passed the 5 month mark of Christy’s death and I am looking at what would have been Christy’s 51st birthday on August 3rd, I am finding that I am missing her more and more. I remember … Continue reading

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Living Today

We are born into this world without our consent, yet we were known before we were conceived and thus were given what we couldn’t possibly choose for ourselves…..life. Throughout our lives, we are given many more things without our consent … Continue reading

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Pain

The pain, the pain of losing a piece of my heart, at times seems impossible to bear. I sometimes want to shutdown as the pain is almost paralyzing. Or, at times, I will get the desire to drive away into … Continue reading

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Another First

Today I am thankful. My life has indeed been blessed and saturated by the love of God through Jesus that I have witnessed first hand in the outpouring of love from those who have come beside me in my grief. … Continue reading

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4 Months

It seems these days that time is being measured by both loss and gain. I have lost a beautiful companion and my best friend, but I have gained an ability to love that I didn’t know existed or that I … Continue reading

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