Greetings!
Now that things have settled down, I have some time to reflect on the past week or so. All I can say tonight is Whew….This has been such an emotional and exhausting time. I have never experienced anything that has worn on me more and I know I am just beginning the next leg of this journey. I feel God is holding me close through all your prayers, but I know it is not going to be easy. Christy was my best friend. We did everything together. So, I definitely have a large adjustment to make.
I can tell you that I never imagined the love I felt for Christy was even possible. In her last week, I felt closer to her than I ever had. As I held her, read to her, prayed with her and sang to her, I loved her so very, very deeply. She couldn’t open her eyes or talk or show any response, but I just loved her more and more. When she took her last breath, I was relieved for her, but my heart felt like it would stop. My life would never be the same.
At the viewing, I experienced an incredible peace. I hugged and spoke with so many who Christy had inpacted during her lifetime. What amazed me the most was the impact she had and is making in her sickness and passing. People’s hearts have been changed. Family and friends alike are finding healing through the love of Jesus exhibited in the life of Christy Joy Ellis! God has and is working hugely through her beautiful story of love. Yes love, LOVE has indeed won!
At one point on Monday after quite a few people had come through, I couldn’t help but notice the joyful atmosphere. As I was being consoled by so many, I thought of Christy as she was being welcomed in heaven. What a beautiful time that must be! We can only imagine, but our imaginations can’t even begin to capture the beauty and excitement of that experience. WOW!!!
Writing this entry helps me, but I can tell you honestly that my heart aches. I miss my girl terribly. I promise all of you though, that I will choose life and I will choose legitimate and postive outlets for my grief. I thank all of you for your prayers and support. I know you are holding me and my family close.
Love to all,
Doug