Today is a new day and I am grateful for life. The past month has been a little weird as I have about 2 months of missing memories after experiencing about a dozen seizures while on vacation in Myrtle Beach last month. I am currently on anti-seizure medication and mostly have not had any additional seizures that I am aware of. These seizures can be quite subtle, so I may not be fully aware of them. My neurologist has me on a cautious leash, not driving or operating yard equipment, mowers, chainsaws, etc. Probably a good thing, but quite frustrating at times as I have to rely on others to mow, drive me around and do some things that I actually enjoy doing. I am accepting more and more of what is and letting go of my resistance and focusing on gratitude and peace of mind. I am surrounded and supported by so many loving people and that has touched me deeply and is giving me the resolve to accept phase of my life.
I am feeling better these days and my memory is getting sharper in the present, yet still not much is coming back from the missing memories. It is strange to look at pictures, emails I have sent or conversations that I have had with friends and family and not remember. I am just being honest with everyone and politely asking for recaps on these events and communications and everyone has been gracious and understanding. I am hopeful all will return at some point, but if not, that is OK as I have new memories to make in every moment. I have not forgotten processes or my ability to problem solve, although remembering a password that I have used a million times has escaped my mind here and there and I have to go to my notes to re-integrate.
As for recovery, I am currently having neurofeedback, biofeedback and psychotherapy once each per week. The neurofeedback is recommended daily and seems to offer the most upside, but that is not feasible at this time due to cost. I will be beginning Tai Chi next month which I am totally excited about. I am focusing on eating clean, movement and methods of relaxation of the body and mind. All seems to have me on the right path. I pray my brain will totally heal and allow me to live a long and prosperous life free of seizures and full of love and peace.
Peace,
Doug