Normal?

Yesterday was a very difficult day. I can’t even begin to describe the feelings of anxiety that sometimes overcome me. I had a meeting to attend yesterday for work, which was actually my first meeting back in the business world since Christy died. I want to tell you, it almost took me out. My legs were shaking, my breathing was difficult, but I knew I needed to push through this. Well, after praying and being greeted positively almost immediately after getting out of my car, I began to feel more relaxed. By the time, the meeting started I was feeling fine and able to contribute. I’m so thankful I didn’t back down on attending. I knew in my heart that God would provide all I needed to overcome this obstacle and he did! Now, I can’t say that I’m ready to jump fully back in to the work world, but I’m feeling much better about it all.

Today is a new day and I am feeling pretty good and a bit normal today. I am thankful for this victory. I am truly taking life one day at a time, trying to find my new normal as my life is not the same and never will be. I have experienced a heart change in my view of life and relationships. I am certainly more sensitive and emotional in so far as my relationships with friends and family, but I can’t quite wrap my mind around what exactly I’m feeling or what to do with it. I do know that overall it is good and today I am hopeful of the plans God has for me. This journey has been difficult, but this is the day the Lord has made and I’m still here, so I will rejoice as best I can and do the best I can with where I am.

Blessings,

Doug