Me and Isabella Joy
Me and Christy Joy
I had the song “When I die” by Blood, Sweat & Tears sticking in my head for the last couple of weeks. The chorus is “and when I die, when I’m dead and gone, there will be one child born in our world to carry on, to carry on”. As Christy Joy has left this earth and Isabella Joy is now here, these words seem quite fitting. I’ve experienced both the beauty of death and the beauty of life in a very short period of time. And yes, I did say beauty of death. Christy Joy was so much a part of me and so deeply connected that I was able to share in the most intimate of life’s experiences, the transistion from this world to the next. Christy’s birth into heaven. I can truly say, without reservation, that it was the most difficult, painful, yet most beautiful event I have ever been privledged to experience. My love for Christy and the love that surrounded us, was so intense and so beautiful. Words cannot describe it. I have been changed forever by it.
Today, as I look at the pictures of my new grandbaby, I am seeing beauty from the beginning of the spectrum of life. To witness the miracle of a new life, just takes my breathe away. I see the pain my daughter went through to carry and bring this new life into this world and it was difficult for all who love her, but the beauty is so undeniable.
Pain and beauty are so closely connected. I really hate it! But, I can’t see how beauty can be fully appreciated without the pain. I feel like life has hit me hard, but life is also revealing a new page that is quite extraordinary and beautiful. This gives me hope and the courage to go on. To love and to live. To seek life. For life is indeed beautiful!
Blessings,
Doug
Favorite post yet, my friend. WELL SAID….very well said. I’m undeniably honored to know you and Christy girl…and to have witnessed so much of the pain and the beauty. I am also changed forever. Keep on, my friend. Love you forever.
I love you dad!
I read this days ago. Everytime I read anything you have written I cry. Maybe that’s good. Your entries make me think and think especially about my sister who i loved more than anyone can imagine. I needed her nurturing and giudance she has given me since I was little but I know she is saying ” Candy you can do it by yourself now”. This post makes me think of my parents who taught Chris the love for everyone she has had forever. I can’t imagine their pain of loosing their little bundle of joy. I just want to thank them for giving us Chris and doing such a great job of making her the person she was. They should be so proud!