Today I am choosing to live. Life is indeed a gift and blessing from God. In living, I am choosing to love, it is a risk, as pain is usually not far from love, but it is so worth the risk. As the heartache of losing my wife and best friend has changed my life completely, I am choosing to love in order to live. Somehow, someway I will love and live. Christy loved big in life. She loved people. She loved the underdogs and she loved me for me, not a perfect me, just me. Out of that love, I grew to be able to love myself and then love Christy with an authentic love. I experienced a love that has so changed me. I love people. I am consumed by it. I can’t help it. I don’t understand it. I don’t want to change it. I see how hurt people are and my heart breaks for them. People hurt and I hurt. I guess that is the connection. I will love and I will live. I choose to love and thus, I choose to live. If I love, I am free. Cancer will not win, despair will not win, anger will not win. LOVE WINS! For God so loved the world….I feel that love flowing in me. I can’t stop it. I don’t want to stop it. I am hurt and I am wounded, but I have to love. Thank you Jesus!
Doug
Jesus came that we might have abundant life. Surely that is a life filled with His love. Live and love, bro.
I admire that you are so full with love, your story has touched the lives of so many people. We all love you and your family very much.
I loved reading what you wrote. You are so right and so amazing.
Live, Laugh and Love!
It is obvious that you know LOVE, Doug Ellis. You are getting really good at LOVE. Love is in you…flowing through you…as it was and IS in Christy. I am amazed and changed by your love story. It’s beautiful! I love you and Christy forever. And ever.